February 20, 2009


God made a promise to me a couple of years ago when I quit my job to take care of my family. He told me to not worry, he will provide for us. The problem is, I am a man, and I don't want to rely on anyone but me to provide for my family, but God to date has not let me do that.

This reminds me of the story of Abraham when he was asked to sacrifice Isaac. On their way up the mountain, this is what transpired.

Gen. 22:6 Abraham took the wood for the burnt offering and placed it on his son Isaac, and he himself carried the fire and the knife. As the two of them went on together, 7 Isaac spoke up and said to his father Abraham, “Father?”

“Yes, my son?” Abraham replied.

“The fire and wood are here,” Isaac said, “but where is the lamb for the burnt offering?”

Gen. 22:8 Abraham answered, “God himself will provide the lamb for the burnt offering, my son.” And the two of them went on together.

Abraham did not take a different sacrifice with him beside the one that God asked for. Even though he did not understand, he answered his son, when he asked about the sacrifice, "God himself will provide". That is one amazing answer. I hope I remember that answer. When They got to the place where Abraham was to sacrifice, and he had put his son on the altar. God stopped him, and there was a ram caught in the thicket. God did provide. Abraham trusted God even though he did not understand.

I feel like such a "poser" most days. I always hear that I have so much faith to step out and do what I am doing, and yet most days I am "threatening" to go and get a real job. My trust seems to last long enough after God provides till the next time I think about what bills, repairs or upcoming costs are coming, which is not too long after. I feel like such a fake sometimes.

2 weeks ago, I was in the same boat.

That day a few things happened. I talked with a director of a camp in New Hampshire that books camps and retreats all year long. We seem to be on the same page, and will begin to receive offers to speak there.

I had a friend from North Carolina which I have not talked to in a couple of years call and ask me if I was available in the middle of April. I told her that I was open and she asked if I wanted to come speak at a retreat that she was planning for. She proceeded to tell me a couple of times that her Senior Pastor and others around her were giving her names and suggesting people to come speak. She then told me that God continued to lay me on her mind and so she called.

We needed to pay rent, and we only had a few dollars to pay. I arranged to borrow some money for it. That evening, someone called that I have never met, and Tauni knows very little, and told her that God spoke to her and told her to help pay our rent for the month. She pretty much paid the whole thing. I told Tauni that it almost doesn't effect me any more just because it happens all the time, and yet it amazes me everytime.

All of these happened in one day. That day, I looked to heaven and said, "OK God, I get it"!

I need to continue to Trust in the one that made me the promise, because he always follows through.

Are there things that God has promised you, either through direct revelation(God speaking directly to you), or through the scriptures that you need to go back and believe and trust God to follow through on?

That is all He wants me to say.

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