October 21, 2009

so much change, so little time

here have been a lot of things that have been going on in the life of the Biddles, and it is so hard to put them all down.

Our trying to understand what God is doing has not been cleared up yet. We are still waiting on a firm answer from God.

I am debating, and leaning toward, getting a part time second job. I have a revival lined up for the second week of November in Lupton, MI, and yet nothing else is seemingly opening up at this time. I am starting to wonder if this door is closing. The lack of chances to bring God's word has been very difficult to understand.

I met with a gentleman, Jeff Pinkleton, from Springfield, who was a connection of David Mabry's, that leads a "ministry" called "The Gathering" which helps to support and encourage men. I was meeting with him, I thought, to get some leads on some possible job stuff, and yet it might lead into helping with the speaking stuff. I am not real sure right now. It was a good meeting and got a contact with a song writer, worship leader from Springfield, which I am hoping to connect with in person soon.

Michael has been sick a couple of times, Tauni has felt somewhat under the weather, Zoe and I have just been a little tired.

We are still trying to find a groove, and not sure if that is gonna happen or not. The question has arisen whether I am suppose to get into a groove. That sounds very uncool right now, seeing as I think it would help tremendously.

Michael has been very active in preschool, and I believe he enjoys it. When I ask, he says no, but when he comes out of class he seems to have had a good time and loves showing us his artwork he has made. He has already hit his teenage years of not wanting to talk to us sometime. He say, "stop talking to me. I'm not talking to you anymore", and then grunts when we talk.

Zoe has been doing better at her colors. I was afraid there for a bit that she was color blind, because she just couldn't get it. I'm still not totally convinced, but feeling better.

I am sorry that I have neglected to keep the updates coming, it has just been a whacky couple of months.


October 4, 2009

Why God?

Sunday, Oct. 4, 2009

I am in a place of wondering what God is doing. We have moved out to Cable, Ohio, into the home of Michael and Christy Will, the pastor of Mount Carmel Friends Church. (If you are google mapping it, you will have to put in the zip code of 43009) It is a very rural area, in between Marysville, Urbana and Bellefountaine. We have lived here as a family, for the past 5 days. It has been an odd transition, and not sure what God has in store.

I have been looking at our situation, and all reasoning has told me that we should still be living in Columbus. We are able to live here without having to pay rent, so hoping to pay off some bills. I have been thinking of getting a second part time job, and that would be better in Columbus. Our church and Michael’s Preschool are in the Columbus area. So the money that we are spending on gas is going to be in the same neighbor as the cost as rent.

I am sitting back and it just doesn’t make sense to Tauni or I, and yet we are confidently sitting in the palm of God’s hand knowing that He has called us to this place, physical and spiritual.

I have been thinking about why it is so difficult to be in the place, mentally and spiritually, that we are. My first issue is that I am feeling a little purposeless right now. I need to have something to do, and my schedule is not exactly filling up the way I was hoping and believing it would.

The second I am not ready to put into words.