so much change, so little time

here have been a lot of things that have been going on in the life of the Biddles, and it is so hard to put them all down.

Our trying to understand what God is doing has not been cleared up yet. We are still waiting on a firm answer from God.

I am debating, and leaning toward, getting a part time second job. I have a revival lined up for the second week of November in Lupton, MI, and yet nothing else is seemingly opening up at this time. I am starting to wonder if this door is closing. The lack of chances to bring God's word has been very difficult to understand.

I met with a gentleman, Jeff Pinkleton, from Springfield, who was a connection of David Mabry's, that leads a "ministry" called "The Gathering" which helps to support and encourage men. I was meeting with him, I thought, to get some leads on some possible job stuff, and yet it might lead into helping with the speaking stuff. I am not real sure right now. It was a good meeting and got a contact with a song writer, worship leader from Springfield, which I am hoping to connect with in person soon.

Michael has been sick a couple of times, Tauni has felt somewhat under the weather, Zoe and I have just been a little tired.

We are still trying to find a groove, and not sure if that is gonna happen or not. The question has arisen whether I am suppose to get into a groove. That sounds very uncool right now, seeing as I think it would help tremendously.

Michael has been very active in preschool, and I believe he enjoys it. When I ask, he says no, but when he comes out of class he seems to have had a good time and loves showing us his artwork he has made. He has already hit his teenage years of not wanting to talk to us sometime. He say, "stop talking to me. I'm not talking to you anymore", and then grunts when we talk.

Zoe has been doing better at her colors. I was afraid there for a bit that she was color blind, because she just couldn't get it. I'm still not totally convinced, but feeling better.

I am sorry that I have neglected to keep the updates coming, it has just been a whacky couple of months.

Scott

Why God?

Sunday, Oct. 4, 2009

I am in a place of wondering what God is doing. We have moved out to Cable, Ohio, into the home of Michael and Christy Will, the pastor of Mount Carmel Friends Church. (If you are google mapping it, you will have to put in the zip code of 43009) It is a very rural area, in between Marysville, Urbana and Bellefountaine. We have lived here as a family, for the past 5 days. It has been an odd transition, and not sure what God has in store.

I have been looking at our situation, and all reasoning has told me that we should still be living in Columbus. We are able to live here without having to pay rent, so hoping to pay off some bills. I have been thinking of getting a second part time job, and that would be better in Columbus. Our church and Michael’s Preschool are in the Columbus area. So the money that we are spending on gas is going to be in the same neighbor as the cost as rent.

I am sitting back and it just doesn’t make sense to Tauni or I, and yet we are confidently sitting in the palm of God’s hand knowing that He has called us to this place, physical and spiritual.

I have been thinking about why it is so difficult to be in the place, mentally and spiritually, that we are. My first issue is that I am feeling a little purposeless right now. I need to have something to do, and my schedule is not exactly filling up the way I was hoping and believing it would.

The second I am not ready to put into words.

Scott

thoughts @ dream

My last post was about a dream that God gave me.  And I left it by saying, what was God saying?  To get caught up, read What God?

I believe it was about a couple of things.  I have been called and sent to rescue those in the darkness.  There will be some encouraging, and some lifting up and some knocking out of the “guards” that are posted to keep them down.  Some will get out, some will not.  I am not responsible for the action others take, but am to do what God has called me to do.  I cannot force anyone to get up and leave the darkness, but I will do my best to lead in the right direction.  

I also know that there will be an upset enemy that will do everything he can to attack the one that beating him at his game, and I will be attacked.  The ones I am freeing will not have the strength or understanding to turn around and help fight off the attacks that are coming, especially as I am only around for a short amount of time.  

And lastly, I woke up to early.  Though I know that I cannot expect those being freed around me to stick around and fight with me, I know I have people around me that are with me, fighting with me, praying for me, and that is why I can continue to do what God has called me to do.  Only through the support of my family and friends can I keep going, and have the energy and freedom to do so.

Thank you so much for doing all that you do, for fighting and protecting me, and giving guidance when you see God calling for it.  The victories that I am seeing in my ministry are just an extension of your ministry.

Scott

Heading Home

So, I am ready to head home.  I have accomplished my task of delivering Scott and Karen safe and secure to Portland, OR and carried a few boxes here and there, and am past the point of missing my family very badly.  

As I was playing Wii this morning, I realized that I hadn't played Wii with Michael for awhile.  It was something we did together for a while, and we have slipped from that time.  I have missed the couch(wrestling) time with my kids.  I miss holding my wifes hand.  What I am trying to say, I can't wait to get home.  

The trip has been awesome, and I will probably never experience the trip that I just took ever again, and I loved it.  But I am feeling very purposeless, and am ready for it to be done.  

pictures from the trip

Here is the link for pictures so far.

http://picasaweb.google.com/sbid11/CrossCountryTrip02?feat=directlink

Pictures of the Day

Laney Elizabeth Biddle.  This pic was sent while I was on the road.

I had a chance to stop in and see Grandma Weinbrenner on my way through Iowa yesterday.  It was a good 20 minutes or so.  Dusty sent a picture of Laney Elizabeth just as I was telling her she had another Great Grand Daughter.

map

This is a map of our trip through tonight.

Map

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